„Can you turn the lights down when you go?“, I mumbled into my pillows.
Minsoo sighed but she switched the light off as she left our room to start her day. I noticed my phone gleam from time to time, but I was too careless to even bother and get up to reach it until the battery finally died and I was left behind in darkness.
Soothing black surroundings with nothing to see and nothing to hear. Just the rustle in my ears and the distant sound of moving cars coming from the open window, which led cool air into the room.
The door opened with a bang. Mr. Kwon rushed into my room, took my blanket and pulled it off of me.
„What are you doing?“, I whined.
„You are supposed to be at your acting training right now. Mr. Yoo called me and said that you didn’t show up.“, he frowned.
„I don’t feel well.“, I replied and tried to fetch my blanket back.
„Then I’ll bring you to a doctor.“
I rolled my eyes and turned away from Mr. Kwon to face my desk.
„I’ll give you five minutes. You don’t even want to know what happens if you won’t be out by then.“, Mr. Kwon glared at me. I could hear he was snarling his teeth. A second later he was out the door.
As I was some part of a slow motion video I started to get dressed and finally made my way to the door where Mr. Kwon was already waiting for me. He pulled me down the stairs and into the car, straight on the way to the hospital we always went. It all went so fast I didn’t even notice the yelling and flashing of the reporters. I only heard something really loud and annoying and felt like I was going to get blind.
„What is it this time?“, Dr. Yoo asked. He stood in front of me, closely observing my face.
I shrugged my shoulders. I didn’t even want to be there.
„She said she’s not feeling well.“, Mr. Kwon answered for me.
„Clover, can you tell me were you’re hurting?“, Dr. Yoo requested.
I focused Mr. Kwon and Dr. Yoo understood I wasn’t going to tell him if my manager was with us inside the room.
„Joosuk, may I talk to her alone for a moment, please?!“, Dr. Yoo said. Something about his voice was really calming this time. I found him nice the other day too, although there was still this strange feeling I had whenever I looked through his glasses.
Mr. Kwon looked a little shocked. He squinted his eyes and then he left.
„You can talk freely now.“, Dr. Yoo said and gave me a smile.
I starred at him, my head empty with nothing to say and nothing to think of. We remained like that for a while. Then Dr. Yoo sighed.
„What’s wrong?“, he asked.
„Everything.“, I whispered. I wasn’t strong enough to bring out a single real word.
Dr. Yoo didn’t seem surprised but focused on me while pulling up a chair to sit down.
„You can trust me, Clover.“, he said, his voice trying to hypnotize me.
„Like Ahn Jaerin could trust you?“, the words slipped outside my mouth. I saw the quick motion inside of his eyes but he tried hard to not let it show.
„I read the articles.“, I continued as he didn’t say anything. „Didn’t you lose your license? How come you’re working as a doctor?“, I asked him.
Dr. Yoo’s expression didn’t change. His eyes, huge like an owl glared at me. But I could hear the gears work inside of his head.
„I can send you over to another doctor if you want. Joosuk, I mean Mr. Kwon probably wants me to prescribe you some medicine. If you tell me what you have, I will arrange you will get real treatment without Mr. Kwon’s influence.“, he finally said.
I needed a few seconds to process the words inside my brain. I wasn’t sure if I could believe he actually wanted to help me.
„I just can’t take it anymore.“, I said. My mouth felt dry and my hands started shaking. All of the sudden I was really tired. My head hurt and I wanted to rest.
„Is it the pressure? The media?“, Dr. Yoo wanted to know.
I nodded. Of course he knew what was going on.
„Can you even sleep?“, he asked.
„Barely.“, I said. I looked onto the ground, fighting against the tiredness and upcoming dizziness.
„Clover! It’s really important that you stay focused. You can do this.“, he said. Dr. Yoo got up and put his hands on my shoulders, waiting for our glances to collide.
I finally looked up, seeing the worry inside of his dark eyes. But at the same time I felt like my body was floating away. Where was I even?
„Clover?“, Dr. Yoo asked.
„Don’t call me that“, I suddenly yelled. I rose from the cot and pushed Dr. Yoo backwards, shaking his hands off of me. He immediately backed off.
I pressed my hands against my temples, the heat and the pain started to get unbearable.
„I hate her, I hate her so much.“, I cried.
Dr. Yoo tried to get a hold of me. „Who are you hating?“, he asked me.
„Clover, I hate Clover.“, I yelled back at him. Finally my legs gave up and I sank onto the ground crying. „I want her to die! Why isn’t she dead already?“
„What is happening in here?“, Mr. Kwon dashed into Dr. Yoo’s office. „What’s going on?“
„Joosuk.“, I heard Dr. Yoo speak. „I think you should really take her into a clinic. She’s going mental. She needs help.“
„What the heck are you saying? There’s no way this is going to happen.“, Mr. Kwon roared.
„Can’t you see that she’s at the end of her strength already?“, Dr. Yoo asked with desperation inside of his voice.
„Then give her something to feel better.“, Mr. Kwon demanded.
„This isn’t going to work.“, Dr. Yoo tried to explain. „She needs to see a professional.“
„I said you should give her something.“, Mr. Kwon said again. He hasn’t completely freaked out yet but I knew he was about to lose it.
Dr. Yoo shook his head. „I don’t want to do this.“, he said.
„You’re really testing you’re limits, aren’t you.“, Mr. Kwon barked. „Either you give her something right now, or you will lose your job. And this time you won’t get back so easily.“
A moment of silence followed. Then Dr. Yoo went over to his desk, scrabbled through his things and went over to a shelf to grab some tubes to hand them to Mr. Kwon.
„Get up now.“, Mr. Kwon yelled. When I didn’t move, he harshly grabbed my wrist and pulled me off of the floor.
He dragged me out of the room and rushed down the hallway out of the hospital.
„I’ll bring you to your acting class now.“, Mr. Kwon spitted out when we were in the car.
I didn’t answer, but held onto the small piece of paper that Dr. Yoo had given me right when Mr. Kwon had pulled me away. ‚Placebo‘, was written onto it.
„Where have you been?“, Sihyun asked as soon as arrived at the KBS studios.
„Clover! Finally. We tried to reach you all day.“, Mr. Yoo said.
I wasn’t in the mood to answer. In fact I wasn’t in the mood for anything.
„Can you explain what you did all morning?“, Mr. Yoo asked. I knew he was mad, but still I couldn’t apologize and I didn’t even feel sorry.
„I’ll take care of her, okay?!“, Sihyun said. Together we went up the stairs to the rooftop, leaving a startled Mr. Yoo behind. The fresh air was feeling good. Finally I could breathe. It was a small piece of freedom, although it was all I had.
„I can’t protect you all the time.“, Sihyun sighed.
We were leaning against the rail and let our eyes sweep over the city.
„Then don’t.“, I said.
„You know you can talk to me.“
I nodded. I took the tube of pills out of the pocket of my jacket and put them down in front of him. He didn’t say anything but looked at the plastic container.
„I was in the hospital. Mr. Kwon wants me to take these.“, I said with a monotone voice.
„What are those?“, Sihyun asked.
„They’re supposed to be antidepressants, I suppose. But don’t worry, they’re only placebos.“
„How do you know?“
I shrugged my shoulders. „Dr. Yoo said it.“
Sihyun looked at me questioningly. „Do you trust him?“, he then asked.
I nodded again.
„Why?“ I felt Sihyun’s glance laying on me.
„It’s a feeling, I guess.“
„A feeling?“, he doubted.
„The same feeling I get with you.“, I said and smiled at him. The first smile I was able to share in a long time. Or at least it felt like that.
„What are you going to do now?“, Sihyun wanted to know after a while.
„I’m not sure yet.“, I admitted.
„I’m worried.“, he said almost whispering.
„Don’t be.“, I replied. „Just don’t even care about me too much.“, I added with a sad smile.
„You can’t expect this from me.“
„I want to though.“, I quietly said. I didn’t look at Sihyun, even though I noticed he was searching for my glance. „I don’t want to drag you into this.“
„I’m already dragged in since the second I saw you.“, Sihyun said. His voice was a lot stronger now and actually made me turn my head. „But do you know, who isn’t dragged in yet?“
I didn’t answer him, waiting for his reply.
„Taejung.“, he finally breathed. „You should tell him.“
I starred at him, trying not to let my surprise show. Sihyun always brought up Taejung, while I wanted to forget he was even once a part of my life. I wanted everyone to stay out of this, because I didn’t want to cause any more pain.
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Clover sets her instagram on private
Model Clover now finally reacts to all the negative comments on instagram by putting her profile to private and unfollowing everyone. Furthermore a lot of pictures have been removed from her account recently. Although this might not help too much, since she still has a lot of followers, who hate on her. It still shows that the young model is effected by the happenings. Until now Clover never gave an official statement, nor respond to any rude comments.
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I was hammering on to the dashboard, my heart pounding inside of my chest as if it was trying to dig it’s way out of my corpse.
„Do you think he’ll come?“, I asked Sihyun.
He had parked his car on an outlying spot at the Hangang. It was already dark outside and I was starring over the water and watched the reflections of the lights move on the surface.
I had called Taejung earlier that day and asked him to come see me. I finally made the decision to tell him the truth. I understood now that people were already involved with me and that there was no way in preventing them to get hurt unless I was honest with them. Taejung had to know his enemy and he needed to know that it wasn’t me. Still I was nervous.
„He’ll show up.“, Sihyun said.
„How can you be so sure?“
„Just a feeling, I guess.“, he grinned and I slapped his arm in reply. „What?“, he squeaked.
„Wait, there’s a car.“, I said as I noticed headlights coming our way.
„Is it him?“, Sihyun asked.
It was him. I recognized the car, which parked a few feet away from us and then Taejung appeared. He looked stunningly gorgeous. It had been a long time since I’d seen him and it overwhelmed me once again.
„You can do it.“, Sihyun encouraged me.
I took a deep breath and went outside the car. The nightly air was a little windy. Taejung shoved his hands into his pockets and walked a few steps in my direction.
We changed a glance. But it felt awkward. Taejung was awfully distant. Something between us had changed. I wanted to turn around and run away.
„Thank you for coming.“, I said and looked onto the ground because I couldn’t stand looking into his face anymore.
Taejung didn’t reply anything.
„I…“, I started. „…I don’t even know how to begin.“, I stuttered.
„You said you wanted to tell me something important.“, Taejung’s harsh words cut the night.
I shrugged. He was apparently still mad. But what was I thinking, of course he hated me.
„I wanted to apologize…“, I began another sentence.
All of the sudden a flash lit the area. Then another one and another one.
„Are you serious?“, Taejung yelled. I turned my head and saw a photographer taking his pictures. How did he find us? I was shocked, not able to move.
„You asked me to come here to get stupid pictures. Are you really that low?“, Taejung yelled.
„It wasn’t me.“, was everything I was able to say.
Taejung shook his head and turned around to leave.
I went after him and grabbed his arm. „Please, wait. I swear I didn’t do this. Please, you need to believe me. I need you, Taejung. I need you.“, I whined.
He stopped for a second, but didn’t turn back at me. A sparkle of hope rose inside of my body. But the next moment Taejung shook off my hand and walked to his car. The headlights blinded me as I sank onto my knees, watching him drive away. Now my heart really bled.
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Clover breaks down at Hangang dumped by Taejung
Last night model Clover was spotted with Level Five’s Taejung at Hangang. The river side is a common spot for couples and romantic dates. So what was the reason for Clover and Taejung to meet up?
It was only reported that their relation was set up by their management, but maybe this wasn’t true after all?! But the two seem to have separated for good this time, as the pictures show a devastated Clover, who is left behind by Taejung, who leaves with his car.
Good for Clover that Netizens start to sympathize with the young model, who seems heartbroken on the pictures. True fans of Clover even started to hate on Taejung for hurting the model and blame him for playing around with her. Until now only Taejung confirmed that the relationship was set up, while Clover’s side never responded to any of that. It is now assumed that Clover didn’t know of the set up and was left in the unknown.
What do you think? Did Taejung play with Clover in order to draw attention on Level Five’s comeback?
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Clover deletes her instagram account
After recently setting her instagram account to private, model Clover now deleted the account.
Clover’s pictures were spammed with comments, either hating on her for her negative press or supporting her, while hating on Level Five’s Taejung.
It seemed like the model and future actress in ‚At the end of the rainbow‘ had enough of the social media and ended this with deleting her account. In addition she has been inactive on all other social media platforms. The only posts that appeared on her SNS were written by her management.
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The next evening Mr. Kwon invited me to some weird party. I had no idea what I was even doing there.
„Did you take your medicine?“, he asked me.
I simply nodded. The talk with Taejung was still tearing me down. All I could see in front of my eyes was Taejung’s face - how it turned from madness to disbelief. And the article that appeared right away wasn’t helping at all.
The party was more like a meet up of old men in suits. I had never seen any of them before. I was the only girl here, standing at the bar and observed the surroundings. The bar, we were inside of, was held in dark wood with yellow lights. A gloomy and somewhat old-fashioned style.
„Your private room is now ready.“, the bar tender said. He seemed a little too fancy for this kind of bar and we shared a look, that I wasn’t able to interpret.
Mr. Kwon and the others shoved their suited bodies through a door into a small room. The walls were also covered with dark wood and the yellow light was the same. Though the furniture was a lot more comfortable. Black crumply couches surrounded a small wooden table. The men took their seats. Mr. Kwon pulled me next to him and pushed me into the seat.
I wasn’t paying attention too much. My mind was still somewhere else and I couldn’t concentrate.
„Here, drink this.“, Mr. Kwon grinned and handed me a glass. I could smell it was alcohol. I just drank it. Didn’t people drink to feel better? Why not give it a shot then.
The men lit their cigars and soon the room was covered with smoke so that it was hard to even breathe. I felt Mr. Kwon’s hand on my bare leg. But then again, was I actually feeling it?
He basically handed me one drink after another. My head was spinning but also the alcohol seemed to numb me. The pain I felt inside was slowly fading and was replaced with a burning sensation of the alcohol running down my gullet.
I then only saw, but didn’t feel that Mr. Kwon was rubbing my leg and that he shoved his body closer to mine.
„Joosuk, you should share your girl.“, I heard a man say. He had white hair, his tie was already gone and his button-down shirt was opened so his few grey chest hairs were peaking through.
„Clover, go over to Mr. Chang.“, Mr. Kwon said quietly and stroke over my back.
I had no idea what was making me do it, but I got up and weaved over to the drunk, smoking man. He was really short and a little chubby.
„No, no, dear.“, he grinned when I wanted to take my seat next to him on the couch. „Here.“, he patted his lap. And so I sat on his lap.
I was happy that I was still numbed from the alcohol. But I started to feel disgusted. The man, who’s name was Mr. Chang, put his hands on my legs, but way to much under my skirt, almost revealing my underwear.
„She’s such a beauty.“, he said and stroke my hair back out of my face, just to run his thick fingers over my cheeks and down my neck.
„And this smell.“, he sang and dragged me down so that his lips almost touched my collar bone.
A single tear ran down my cheek. Although I wasn’t able to feel too much or to even understand what was happening, something inside of me reacted to it.
All of the sudden the door was thrown open.
„Get your hands off of her.“, a voice said. A second later I recognized Sihyun. „I said, get your hands off.“, he repeated. Mr. Chang was startled, but pulled his hands back.
Sihyun crossed the room and took my hand.
„What do you think you’re doing?“, Mr. Kwon interrupted. He jumped up from his couch and glared at Sihyun.
„I’m saving you from making a big mistake.“, he said with a serious tone. „Let’s go.“, he then said much softer and together we left the private room.
„Why didn’t you do anything?“, he asked me.
I starred at him, not able to understand my emotions.
And the next moment, I fainted.
Sihyun caught me, carefully put me into his car. But he wasn’t sure were to bring me. He knew Mr. Kwon wouldn’t let this slide and he wanted to protect me.
„Hello?“, Taejung answered the phone.
„Thank god, you’re answering.“, Sihyun gasped. „Here’s Sihyun. I need your help.“
„Why?“
„Well, Clover needs your help.“
„Is it about her again? I’m done with that.“, Taejung said.
„Taejung, listen! I just found her at Mr. Kwon’s private bar place. With a lot of old men and it wasn’t legal what they wanted to do to her.“, Sihyun explained.
Taejung didn’t answer and Sihyun could only hear him breathing at the other end of the line.
„I know you don’t want to help her, because you think she betrayed you, but you have no idea what she did for you.“, Sihyun said.
„What did she do?“, Taejung wanted to know.
„I’m actually not supposed to tell you, but the reason why she wanted you to break up with her was, because Mr. Kwon was planning to release photoshopped pictures of her beaten up.“
„What does that have to do with me?“
„Oh, you know exactly what that has to do with you. You know Mr. Kwon too.“
The two boys both remained silent for a while.
„What do you need help with?“, Taejung then asked.
Sihyun sighed in relief. „We can’t let her here, we have to bring her somewhere where it’s safe.“
„What do you have in mind?“
„I thought you would know some place.“, Sihyun carefully laughed.
„I think I really know where we can bring her. Where should I meet you?“
„I’m in my parking lot right now. I think it would be best if you come here with your car and take her.“
It didn’t take too long until Taejung arrived in the parking lot of Sihyun’s apartment building. And he wasn’t alone. Chaemin was with him.
„Where is she?“, Taejung asked while he walked over to Sihyun’s car.
„She’s inside. She collapsed but I think she’s sleeping now.“, he said.
Taejung carefully put his hands around my body and carried me over from one car to the other. He seated me on the backseat and closed the door.
„Where will you take her?“, Sihyun asked.
„To my family’s home. We should be able to make it if we drive the entire night.“, he said.
Sihyun nodded. He didn’t like giving me into Taejung’s hands but he had no other choice than trusting a boy he barely knew.
Chaemin climbed onto the driver’s seat, while Taejung went onto the backseat with me. He looked at me for a while, apparently thinking of what he should do. Then he pulled me closer and embraced me.
It was then when I was thinking I was probably dreaming, because he was so close all of the sudden. I pressed my head against his chest and clawed my hands into his shirt.
„Taejung.“, I whispered. I breathed in his smell and absorbed his warmth. What a wonderful dream.
„Taejung.“, I whispered. I breathed in his smell and absorbed his warmth. What a wonderful dream.
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Model Clover is missing - Case of Ahn Jaerin repeating itself?!
Again a young celebrity under Mr. Kwon’s wings went missing. And everyone remembers the sad case of Ahn Jaerin, who committed suicide in 2012.
Insiders say Clover was attending a private party but didn’t arrive at her dorm afterwards. Apparently Mr. Kwon reported Clover’s disappearance but the police did not start their investigations yet, due to the few hours that had passed since the incident.
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